A List for Lent

Wednesday begins the Season of Lent, the six week/forty day period (not counting Sundays) from Ash Wednesday to Resurrection Day when the Church takes a solemn turn to consider Jesus’ journey to the cross.  We consider our sinfulness, repentance, and our own mortality.  It is a season of soul-searching, a time to return to the Lord in ashes and repentance.  Jesus entered the wilderness for 40 days after his baptism, and the season of Lent designates forty days that we may enter the wilderness and fully rely on God.

Traditionally, Christians have decided to “give up” something during Lent.  Chocolate has always been a favorite, caffeine, cigars, or alcohol.  Many people decide to take a “social media” fast, giving up Facebook or Instagram.  All of these are fine, and some people may find spiritual growth in refusing a reliance of these so that they may rely on God.  This year, my thoughts are drawn toward those things that I may need to give up, not just for the season of Lent, but permanently.

The Prophet Joel will proclaim to us on Ash Wednesday that God calls us to return to God with all our heart.  God doesn’t call us to get everything cleaned up and then come, but to come with our hearts.  God is concerned with those things we do or don’t do, but God also wants our hearts, God wants them to be pure.

Nadia Bolz Weber, a Lutheran pastor in Denver, offered a list for the season of Lent several years ago, an action for each day, and it has been helpful to me.  I offer it to you again as a reminder or a plan of how we may offer our hearts to God and observe a Holy Lent.

Day 1: Pray for your enemies

Day 2: Walk, carpool, bike or bus it.

Day 3: Don’t turn on the car radio

Day 4: Give $20 to a non-profit of your choosing

(Sunday)

Day 5: Take 5 minutes of silence at noon

Day 6: Look out the window until you find something of beauty you had not noticed before

Day 7: Give 5 items of clothing to Goodwill

Day 8: No bitching day

Day 9: Do someone else’s chore

Day 10: Buy a few $5 fast food gift cards to give to homeless people you encounter

(Sunday)

Day 11: Call an old friend

Day 12: Pray the Paper (pray for people and situations in today’s news)

Day 13: Read Psalm 139

Day 14: Pay a few sincere compliments

Day 15: Bring your own mug

Day 16: Educate yourself about human trafficking 

(Sunday)

Day 17: Forgive someone

Day 18: Internet diet

Day 19: Change one light in your house to a compact florescent

Day 20: Check out morning and evening prayer online at The Daily Office.

Day 21: Ask for help

Day 22: Tell someone what you are grateful for

(Sunday)

Day 23: Introduce yourself to a neighbor

Day 24: Read Psalm 121

Day 25: Bake a cake

Day 26: No shopping day

Day 27: Light a virtual candle 

Day 28: Light an actual candle

(Sunday)

Day 29: Write a thank you note to your favorite teacher

Day 30: Invest in canvas shopping bags

Day 31: Use Freecycle

Day 32: Donate art supplies to your local elementary school

Day 33: Read John 8:1-11 

Day 34: Worship at a friend’s mosque, synogogue or church and look for the beauty

(Sunday)

Day 35: Confess a secret

Day 36: No sugar day – where else is there sweetness in your life?

Day 37: Give $20 to a local non-profit

Day 38: Educate yourself about a saint www.catholic.org/saints

Day 39: Pray for peace

Day 40: Pray for your enemies (you probably have new ones by now) then decide which of these exercises you’ll keep for good

The Ugliest Church Meeting I've Attended

The ugliest church meeting I ever attended happened about fifteen years ago, and I remember it like it was yesterday.  It was a meeting of the Music Committee, and in addition to the committee the Music Director and I were in attendance.  It was the only church meeting I’ve ever been present at in which someone “dropped the f-bomb,” and it was the ugliest church meeting at which I’ve ever been present.

            What makes the memory of this meeting peculiar is that I don’t remember the particular topic of the meeting. I don’t remember the reason the meeting was called, and I certainly don’t remember the printed agenda.  What I do remember are the tears, the hurtful words, the rising tempers, which all ended with the seventy-year-old Music Director standing to his feet, slamming his hands on the table, and telling the committee that he hoped they knew never to bother with him again.  He left the room quickly, and the rest of us sat there speechless for what seemed like an eternity.

            The music director was a long-time member of the church whom I deeply cared for, as I did for every other member on that committee.  They were all people who had brought their talents and gifts to the church and for many years had used them for the worship, work, and witness of God in the community.  But something went terribly wrong in that meeting as it had in the weeks leading up to the meeting.

As the pastor, what I was most criticized about in this conflict was what happened after the meeting.  The music director was someone that I cared deeply for, and we had a close relationship for years before that terrible night.  After the meeting I continued my relationship with him, mainly as pastor.  After a cooling off period I invited him back to church, not in the role of music director, but as a worshiper and maybe as a choir member.  I continued to care for him, we went to lunch, and I tried to continue to include him in the life of the congregation.

            The chairperson of the music committee didn’t like this one bit.  Her thinking was that because of his actions we should let him go, never invite him back.  Basically, good riddance.  I had a conversation with her about this one day, and the thing I told her was this.  “I don’t think you (or anyone in your family) would ever do anything like he did.  You’re not that type of person.  But, what I hope you know is that if you or someone in your family ever blows it like he did, I’m still going to love you and that your church is not going to give up on you.”

            She understood what I was saying, but she still didn’t like it.  She never liked it.  And to be honest, I didn’t like it either.  It would have been easier to have let him go, especially after he acted in such an un-Christian way.  But here’s the thing—we all have the real potential to act in un-Christian ways, and some (most?) of us have realized that potential.  I need a church that refuses to give up on people, however inappropriate their actions.

            The church cannot condone harmful behavior, Jesus sure didn’t.  But within the limits of good boundaries and not allowing people to be hurt we do not give up on each other and we do not stop loving one another.  “How many times should my sister or brother offend me and I forgive him?” seven times seven”? Jesus was asked.  “I tell you, not seven times seven, but seven times seventy,” which is saying that there is no limit on our forgiveness.  

St. Valentine

“Which holidays are Christian?”  That was the question the leader of the Bible study asked.  “Of all the holidays we celebrate, which ones started as Christian celebrations?”  He then passed out a list of our normal American holidays: Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Years, MLK Day, Valentines, Mother’s Day, etc.  As we “graded” our own papers it was interesting, if not a little shocking, to see which holidays actually started as Christian, and which ones didn’t.  Surprisingly, Valentine’s Day is a Christian Holiday.  It started as a saint’s day, the feast day of St. Valentine.

St. Valentine was a Christian who was in love.  He lived in the third century in a time when it was illegal for Christians to gather for worship.  Christians were arrested when the Roman authorities caught them in worship, or for simply believing in Jesus, professing that “Jesus is Lord.”  Valentine, who loved Christ and His Church, would visit those Christians who had been tossed into jail.  The Romans started to figure this all out—Valentine must be a Christian too.  So he is arrested and is sent to trial.  If Valentine would have had a really good attorney he would have been told to keep his mouth shut, to not say anything.  But Valentine was a man in love, in love with Jesus, and he couldn’t stop talking about the Jesus he loved.  So instead of staying quiet and pleading the fifth before the judge, Valentine opened his mouth and told the judge about Jesus.  The judge was moved by Valentine and his love for Christ.  He refused to punish Valentine, and the judge commits himself to Christ and was baptized.

The Roman emperor was not happy.  Claudius decided if the judge was not going to take care of Valentine he would.  Claudius had Valentine brought before him so that he could put an end to it all.  When Valentine appeared before Emperor Claudius he started doing what he always did: talking about Jesus.  He was so in love he couldn’t do anything else.  This is what happens when you are in love.  Claudius was not happy that Valentine wouldn’t stop talking about Jesus and that he was trying to convert him to Christianity.  The Emperor told Valentine: you have a choice.  Either stop talking about Jesus or I’m going cut your head off.  For Valentine, that was not really a choice, because he was a man in love.  In love with Christ.  And loving Christ and talking about Jesus meant more to him than anything else.  And he gave his life, because when you’re in love you just can’t stop talking about the thing you love.

Our culture celebrates a holiday today of romantic, emotional, sentimental, erotic love.  And this is not a bad thing…we need more committed love in our culture.  But as Christians let us remember that today is a Christian day, a “holy-day,” when we remember one of our ancestors in the faith who was so in love with Jesus that he would give his life for Him.

Pastor's Letter About the Boiler

On Saturday, January 22 the church’s boiler, which heats the sanctuary, upper level, and fellowship hall experienced a quick and complete breakdown.  Fuel oil was leaked into the boiler room, a mild “puff” of an explosion occurred, and smoke filled most of the building.  As you know, we have been unable to use our building because of the odor and lack of heat.  We are now returning to all scheduled activities in our building.

The odor is nearly gone, and we are leaving doors open during the day this week to finally eliminate the smell.  Because of the strong smell, Trish, our financial secretary, has not been able to be in the building to do her normal work.  This is why there has been no financial updates in the bulletin, along with the reality that we haven’t taken up an offering in three Sundays.  A gentle reminder—your giving and stewardship matter, especially at a time like this.

Many of you are interested in what happened and what is being done.  Here’s a pastor’s explanation.

First, the boiler is older and it has been on the Building and Grounds radar to replace it soon.  The boiler has been regularly serviced, and no one saw this coming.

Second, to repair the boiler now would cost in the neighborhood of $15,000.  This includes work on the chimney, totaling about $5,000, which would have to be complete before the boiler could be relit.  

Third, the Building and Grounds Team wants to gather quotes and plans for the best way to replace this equipment.  Propane is a good option, and because of the higher level of efficiency with a new system we will not have to use the chimney and can close it off rather than repairing it.

Fourth, I don’t think it is in the church’s best interest to spend $15,000 to repair our current equipments for the remainder of this winter when it will be replaced in the coming months anyway.

Fifth, there is a chance that we will have some coverage from our insurance.  The Board of Directors and Facilities Manager is working on this.

Sixth, we have put in a temporary heat source in the sanctuary at a very minimal cost that will keep us warm through the rest of this winter and early Spring.  This enables us to stop the process of trying to repair our boiler and find a good solution that will work for the church for years to come.  The sanctuary will be warm for worship and any other events that are planned there or in the fellowship hall.

This has been a major event for the Building and Grounds Committee, and they, along with Arlie, have worked hard to move this process forward.  The Committee is meeting tomorrow night, and have already scheduled appointments with HVAC contractors to plan a permanent solution for the heating needs.

I hope this helps explain what has happened and the difficult process of finding a solution.  Unfortunately the work of being the church is not always related to “Connecting to God, Each Other, And the World,” but we do know that in everything that happens God is working, even if it is in the background.  

Asset or Liability?

I Refuse to Lead a Dying Church.  This is the title of a book that I read in 2008, and the book deeply affected me then and I still remember parts of it today.  It was reading this book that led me to call a group together at my church in NC where a conversation began through which God led us to start an additional (contemporary) worship service.

There is much I don’t like about that book, I didn’t then, and I still don’t.  Mainly, I hate the title, maybe even the foundational idea, that “dying” is something to be avoided at all costs.  We serve a Lord who willingly died, and it was in his dying that new life is resurrected.  In baptism, we imitate the dying of Christ, and it is in that dying that we are raised to the “newness of life.”  So, we are called to die, to ourselves, that we may live.  So in some ways we should be dying.  And, some things in church need to die.  There are programs, traditions, and habits that have been limping along on life support for years that should die, and when they do we know that God will bring forth new life in ways we couldn’t even expect. 

But one of the truths of the book I have never forgotten is the insistence that when a church looks at its balance sheet, at its assets and liabilities, that a church’s buildings should clearly be categorized as a liability, not an asset.

Everywhere you look there are churches who have buildings that are 50, 60, 100, 125 years old, and these huge aging buildings drain the church’s budgeted dollars and keep the church from using those dollars on ministry.  We also live in a time in which owning and maintaining a building for meeting is less and less important.  The ability and even preference to gather in public spaces, in people’s homes, and even online has lessened the importance owning and maintaining buildings.

For churches like ours, we have inherited large and aging buildings.  They are expensive to maintain, and many churches like ours have faced the realization that in order to reach people with Jesus we must get out of our buildings, go into the community, and carry the good news of Jesus to those who will not come to where we are.

If you have read this far into this article you are probably expecting me to wrap this piece up with a twist that reassures that this issue is really as not as difficult as it seems.  But I don’t have that.  The best churches have figured out is to find good organizations who have worthwhile missions and share the space.  This is what we are doing with the Coalition of Powhatan Churches.  But we must understand that our core mission is not tied to brick and mortar.  Discipleship, community, Christian formation, missions, love, holiness, evangelism, these are not tied to a building, but to a people who go forth in the community to accomplish that mission.

In John 1 we read that the Word Made Flesh went on the move, in fact the Living Word of God, Jesus Christ, moved to where we are that we may be brought closer to God.  Jesus “tented” among us, not waiting for us to go to him.  And we are a part of that same story as it continues in our community and world.

I Dream a World...

Early this morning when I turned on the radio I heard the announcer interviewing a contributor who was asking for submissions from listeners.  The submissions could be in the form of a list, an essay, or a poem.  If the listeners chose to send a poem, it could rhyme but didn’t have to.  The contribution should complete the prompt “I Dream a World...”  Of course, this was offered today because it is the Martin Luther King, Jr. Holiday, a connection with the “I Have a Dream” speech.   But all morning I have been thinking, and even praying about the world of which I dream.

            I dream a world…

            where swords are beat into ploughshares, and spears into pruning hooks…

            where Jesus, the Prince of Peace, rules in the hearts and minds of all the world’s people…

            where there is no need for abortion clinics or death row…

            where we hear more news stories that are life-giving…

            where we fully realize that Jesus is the way, the truth, and the life…

            where we finally see each other as God sees us…

            where we understand that Jesus is as concerned with our life in this world as he is life in eternity…

            where all children have a safe home, enough food, and parents who care for them…

            where all the world’s citizens are free to worship as their conscience leads them, whether I agree with them or not…

            where we are grateful for all that God has given us…

            where we know that we cannot end violence with violence…

            where teachers and social workers are paid more than professional athletes…

            where our heroes are peacemakers and not fear-peddling warmongers…

            where everyone realizes their God-given potential for good in the world…

            where God is not blamed for evil that happens in the world, and people no longer do harmful things in God’s name…

            where Christians understand that the “kingdom of God does not arrive on Air Force One, no matter who occupies it” (C. Colson)…

            where we understand that we cannot make poor decisions as individuals and as a nation and always expect someone else to bail us out…

            where we understand that God created the world in such a way that we reap what we sow, so we work to sow carefully…

            where we know and live in the reality that God will have the final say in all things, and that God’s ways are not our ways.

            These are a few of my “dreams” for the world, and as I think of these and others, I am grateful that while I look to the future for their fulfillment, I know that some of these are already being realized in God’s kingdom.

            What are your dreams?  The world you dream about, how do you see it?  Maybe you can consider today that world, how God is bringing it to pass, and how God is calling you to make that world a reality in our small circle of influence.

Inward Journey/Outward Journey

The Christian life can be divided into two “journeys.”  There is the “outward” journey, or what is “out there” for others to see.  Jesus calls us to imitate him, to “follow him” and our actions and words should imitate his actions and words.  Our outward journey includes our mission work, our acts of compassion and our working for justice in the world.  This is the outward journey.

There is also our “inward journey.”  The Christian “inward journey” concerns our mind, our heart, our soul.  It is directly connected to our “outward journey,” but it must be nourished for it to grow.  When we belong to Christ, we are invited into a life in which our minds are becoming like the “mind of Christ,” our hearts can experience deep joy, contentment, and peace.  Our inward journey is shaped by Jesus, the Living Word, but also by scripture, the written word.

The inward journey is formed by private practices such as prayer and scripture reading, but it is primarily shaped in community, by life together in the church.

This coming Sunday you will be given the opportunity to share with the deacons (by marking a survey) how you would like to participate in Spiritual Formation at May Memorial.  Many have traditionally nourished their “inward journey” through Sunday school, and many have traditionally found that nourishment on Wednesday nights.  But the deacons and I wonder what other ways we can pursue that inward journey together.

Maybe it is Women’s Bible Study?

Maybe it is another daytime Bible Study?

Maybe it is a weekend retreat?

Maybe it is a 6 week topical study?

Maybe it is a weekly small group?

Maybe it is a group that meets at May Memorial?

Maybe it is a group that meets at a local coffee shop?

Maybe it is a group that meets online?

Maybe it is…(you fill in the blank)?

The deacons will look at the responses and this will guide the deacon’s ongoing conversation about our inward journey.  

Behold, You desire truth in the innermost being,

And in the hidden part You will make me know wisdom.  Psalm 51:6

The Power of Example

Desmond Tutu, the Anglican Archbishop of Cape Town, South Africa, died yesterday at the age of 90.  He was a churchman, preacher, theologian, and fighter for racial equality.  He was a joy-filled man, his laughter and sense of humor were contagious.  His Godly impact reached far beyond South Africa, touching Christians around the world.  I love Tutu’s 2010 On Being interview with Krista Tippett, you can listen and learn more about Tutu by clicking here.

When Tutu was a child in South Africa the nation was in the grips of apartheid.  The racial inequality was felt in every aspect of daily life for black South Africans.  When a black person met a white person on the sidewalk, it was required of the black person to step into the gutter, stop, and allow the white person to pass.  Black people were expected to do this to show respect to white people who believed they were superior.  When Desmond Tutu would walk with his mom to town, again and again his mom would step into the gutter, stop, and allow white men to pass.  One particular day he and his mom approached a tall white man dressed in a black suit. Before his mother could step off of the sidewalk, as was expected, the white man stepped into the gutter and stopped, and when young Desmond and his mom passed by, the man tipped his hat in a gesture of respect to his mother.  The young Tutu was amazed that a white man had done this.  He asked his mother “Why did that white man do that?” His mother explained, “He’s an Anglican priest. He is a man of God; that is why he did it.”  Desmond Tutu decided then and there that he wanted to be a man of God, an Anglican, a priest.  The courageous, loving, Christian action of that man on the side walk changed Desmond Tutu’s life.  His action pointed Tutu toward Jesus, to a faithful Christian life that would eventually affect millions of people around the world.

That man on the sidewalk that day was Trevor Huddleston, a quiet, loving, Christlike gentleman.  Tutu eventually attended the church where Huddleston served as pastor, where Huddleston became Tutu’s mentor, friend, and guide to vocational ministry.

In some ways Huddleston’s stepping off of the sidewalk was a small act, but it had tremendous effect.  And my heart is moved by this story.  And I love it when doing the right thing turns the table in big ways.  But for God’s people it is simply the doing of the right thing that is the end goal.  The rest is up to God, and God will take our right actions and use them in small and big ways.

Sunday School and Spiritual Formation

Everything we do as a church falls under one of our five broad ministries: Worship, Missions, Stewardship, Hospitality, and Spiritual Formation.  These are the five important ministries that we are called to as a church, and we have teams and committees that work in each of these ministry areas.  We have continued to do God’s work in the five ministry areas during the pandemic, although some of those ministries have been adapted and more limited.  As we have been returning to a new normal with the benefit of vaccines and other protections, more and more functions have resumed and returned to normal.

Sunday School has been an important part of Spiritual Formation at May Memorial since our founding.  Sunday school has been around for nearly 250 years, it has been vital for millions of Christians.  Through the years at May Memorial many classes have been a source of fellowship, Bible Study, and community for our members.  One of those classes at May Memorial is the Koinonia Class.  The class, taking its name from the Greek word for fellowship used many times in the New Testament, has resumed meeting in our building every Sunday morning at 9:45.

At the December Deacon’s meeting, the deacons talked at length about the importance of Spiritual Formation for our church family and how best to provide opportunities for that to happen.  There was conversation about simply encouraging all of the classes that we had before COVID to simply resume their normal Sunday morning schedule.  There was also conversation about seeing this as an opportune moment to explore new and different ways for Spiritual Formation to happen in our church and community.

During the worst of the pandemic we had an online Sunday school class taught faithfully by Bob Kruschwitz.  The class was well attended, and it provided community, encouragement, outreach, and spiritual formation for us during a difficult time.  Last summer as the vaccines became available and it seemed that life was returning to normal the online class ended and many of those attendees returned to the Koinonia class.  We would have never guessed a few years ago that we could have a “Sunday school” class that met online and it to have been as successful as it was.  And yet it was wonderfully successful.  Which leads me to ask: are there other non-traditional ways for Spiritual Formation to happen?  And, should we explore those as we think of re-starting other Sunday school classes?

Would there folks that would like to meet in homes instead of at the church building?  Or, maybe meet at a restaurant or coffee shop?  Would there be some who would prefer to meet another day and time rather than the traditional Sunday morning at 9:45?  What about “short term” classes, that offer a specific study for a few weeks or months?  Is there still a need for an online class?  These are just a few of my thoughts, and I would guess there could me more options that I may not even think of.

Early in January the church family will be given the opportunity to give input for the ways we can offer Spiritual Formation opportunities.  Please be in prayerful thought of how we can continue to provide opportunities to be formed as Jesus’ disciples.

All is Well?

Robert died last Monday. I found out late Monday night when Anna texted me, and on Tuesday I received an email from the Pastor at Benson Baptist. I was and still am heartbroken.

Robert moved into a “slum-lord” owned rental house behind the Benson Baptist parsonage when my family and I lived there, and Robert became a part of our lives. Robert struggled with most things in life. He struggled to pay his rent, he struggled to keep his power on, and in the Town of Benson when your power was disconnected you also lose water, sewage and trash pick up. Daily life quickly becomes messy without running water and a working bathroom. Robert struggled to keep his house warm in the cold months, and one year Robert tried to heat his home with his kitchen oven, resulting in a power bill that was hundreds of dollars more than he could ever pay.

Of all the things with which Robert struggled one thing he did not struggle with was making friends. He had a smile that would brighten a room, and the Benson Baptist Church family would all return that smile when he came in for worship at our early service on Sunday mornings. Robert would come in late, pick up a cup of coffee and doughnut, and walk down the center aisle to find his seat. He would always speak to me from across the room, even if I was in the middle of my sermon.

During those years Robert came to our home for Thanksgiving and for Christmas, sharing those meals with my family. He was a dear soul.

Before I came to Powhatan the last thing I tried to do was to get Robert into government housing. I helped him get a copy of his Social Security card, a NC ID, and we went to the office of the Housing Authority. Robert needed to be in subsidized housing. Robert received federal disability benefits, and I never knew exactly what his disability was. When I was helping him fill out his application I asked him, and although it was hard to understand him much of the time, he simply said “I’m just slow.” When we met with the director I quickly knew that his chances were not good. Robert had been convicted of a drug charge years earlier when he was arrested for possession of a small amount of marijuana. This made him ineligible for government housing in Benson.

Although I no longer had contact with Robert since coming to Powhatan, the church family at Benson Baptist continued to embrace and love him. Ken Tart, a professional photographer and deacon in that church, looked after Robert, and was a good friend to him. Ken was the one who planned a birthday party for Robert in my last year at Benson, when about thirty of us took him to a North Carolina BBQ Buffet close to Raleigh. We had a great time, Robert was overjoyed, telling us that it was the first birthday party he ever had. He had a tough life.

Last Wednesday night in choir my heart was still heavy with the news that Robert was trying to walk across I-95 in Benson when he was struck by a car and was killed. The anthem Andrew had chosen (a song I love) for the week is titled All Is Well. The idea of the song (you heard it yesterday morning) is that because of Bethlehem, of Christ’s birth, that all is well in the world. And honestly, as I sang, I knew that all is not well. And I still know that all is not well. It is a nice, sentimental idea, but there is so much that is wrong.

Being a Christian does not mean that every hurt and struggle and disappointment and pain is cleared up immediately. Every week people enter our sanctuary for worship and their heart is breaking. Because all is not well. We clean up well and put on a strong front, but we know that underneath it all sometimes we are struggling. As Christians we believe that we are leaning into a coming kingdom where all shall be made right, when God will finally have God’s way, and this world will be “set to rights.” And that is what brings us back, the hope that we are a part of God working His purpose out in this world. And that one day Jesus’ and our prayer will be answered, that God’s kingdom will come on earth as in heaven.

I have decided to include what was sent to me from the Benson Baptist pastor about Robert along with a couple of photos. One is a professionally done photo of Robert done by his friend and Benson Baptist deacon Ken Tart, another is Robert at Vacation Bible School.

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Robert Rowland, or to us at Benson Baptist just “Robert,” was tragically killed on 11/29/2021 as he attempted to cross Interstate 95 on foot.  Many of us will remember Robert’s infectious smile, the way he would walk into the church during the sermon to stop and wave at people on both sides of the center aisle as he entered the early service.  Robert was so happy to see everyone.  He may have tired of the sermon or maybe just had other things to do because he rarely stayed very long.  But we know he enjoyed breakfast at the early service and he had an uncanny way of knowing when we were having a church meal. 

Many people at Benson Baptist embraced Robert either at church or when they saw him out in the community. Our pastor at the time, Michael Edwards was a friend to Robert and many times tried to help Robert find better housing.  I believe Robert knew that the people at Benson Baptist loved him.  One of our members who took up a lot of time with Robert was Ken Tart.  Robert would accompany Ken to Raleigh to pick up food for the BAMA Food Pantry or you would see Robert around the studio.  But in the end, when attempts to help Robert did not seem to work as we would have wished, all we could do was to just love Robert just as he was.  That was probably the most important lesson he taught us. 

On April 14, 2013, Robert was baptized in our church by our interim pastor, Charles Royal.  Robert was not seeking church membership (because he often attended other churches) but he wanted to be baptized.  

As Lawrence shared in the sermon on Sunday about our being a “present”, I like to think that we at Benson Baptist were a “present” of love and acceptance for Robert as we did our best to represent Jesus to him.  We all know that Robert brought us much love and joy and he taught us how easily we could love someone so different from many of us.   Robert will be missed and his memory cherished.  We know that as God’s child he now rests in his presence.   

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Below is the text from the testimony Ken Tart gave during Robert’s “Re-Baptism” on April 14, 2013.  And attached is a devotion that Chris Underwood shared with Ken, "We are all Robert.”

Robert Rowland’s Baptism at BBC: Shared Testimony about Robert from Ken Tart, April 14, 2013

1 John 3:17 ESV (English Standard Version). “But if anyone has the world's goods and sees his brother in need, yet closes his heart against him, how does God's love abide in him?”

I met or “a lot of us first met” Robert about 3 years ago, when he lived across the street from the church fellowship hall on Hill St. He could sit on his porch and see what was going on over here. He started coming over asking different people for a little help. Intimidating looking at first, we didn’t know what to make of him. Was he a humble person saying “he needed money for food,” or another drug addict looking for a way to get high?

I started out giving Robert a few bucks occasionally to help him out, trusting the Lord that he was sincere and would put it to good use. He later recognized my truck at the Studio one day and figured out where “I live”. So then he would drop in unannounced and ask for me. He didn’t mind sitting and waiting if I was upstairs taking pictures. He didn’t have anything else to do. He would offer to work, but there wasn’t much at the time that I needed him for.

Lots of others in our Church have helped Robert out in times of need. Dr. Larry Williams did some emergency work on his teeth when he needed it! Dr. Millie Johnson took him to the Emergency Room another day when he was in pain. Michael Edwards, Luke and I moved in a new-looking stove donated by Hubert & Mary Katherine Worthington to the house he was staying in then.

Two years ago, for his 35th Birthday, several of our church family took him to McCall’s in Clayton! There was about 30 of us total. It was the first birthday party he had ever had! This February a few of us along with Pastor Charles took him to Western Sizzlin’ in Dunn for his 37th birthday. Robert likes the all-you-can-eat buffets as you can tell.

You can’t understand most of what he says. But, he doesn’t seem to mind repeating it as many times as you need him to. Robert along with Thomas Hall, Myra’s son, are my main go to guys that I can count on to go to the Big Food Bank in Raleigh. We fill my Suburban (and the Church Trailer too sometimes) with food to bring back for the local Food Bank. I couldn’t get it done without them. It takes almost the whole day.

Robert’s timing is usually bad...

• Coming in late to Sunday Church, or on Wednesday nights after the food has been put away.

• In the Early Service he can’t be still during “Praise & Worship” - even though he has difficulty reading the words on the screen.

• He‘s the one standing up during Church Service when everyone else is seated!

  Back when Robert had started coming around regularly; I was struggling with how much I should help him. It was May of 2010, because our Church was having a Family Day outside playing volleyball and the beanbag boards were set up. I was tossing the bags with Chris Underwood and a couple of others talking about Robert. Chris, who knew I was unsure about whether I was doing the right thing, asked me if I had read the Daily Devotions this past week in the Men of Integrity devotion book. I said no, and he said go back and read Wednesday or Thursday’s - he wasn’t sure which one it was. I asked him what it was about and he wouldn’t tell me! He said just go back and read it you’ll know which one I’m talking about. So I did, and here it is... (Explain book’s devotion title and read excerpt.)

The Key Bible Verse for that day... Luke 19:10

“For the Son of Man came to seek and save those who are lost.”

Most of you didn’t know Robert’s last name until you saw it in the program today. Don’t feel bad, I had known him for months before I finally asked.

I didn’t know about Robert asking Pastor Charles about being Baptized today until after Church last Sunday when Charles told me - not Robert. Of course, I had some concerns. What would the church think? Would it be OK? He’s not seeking membership, since he attends a couple of other churches also. - But, he asked to be Re-Baptized here.

Our Church has come a long way in recent years. While we continue to support and lift up each other, we’re looking outside our church walls at the needs of others more than any time since I’ve been here.

You see, our children and grandchildren, the twenty and thirty-somethings age groups are not hung up on church doctrine and whether you’re a Baptist or Methodist, they are looking for Churches where they feel a connection with others - making a difference in the lives of the “unsaved and under-privileged” outside our doors.

The growth and future of our Church, and other Churches, will be the ones who recognize, work, and pray for this. Together we can make a difference to others, whether its the other side of the globe, or right in Benson across from our Church on Hill St.

While I could say a lot more... Thank you, Robert for helping “me” “and us” to see and understand that.

When we are making the effort to Bless others, we are the ones usually who receives the bigger Blessing!

God Bless You, and Miss Ava for your testimony of Baptism today.

Funerals

This past weekend I officiated at my sixty-fifth funeral since coming to May Memorial.  The vast majority of those sixty-five have been for members of the May Memorial family, while others have been for folks in the community who were friends of church members.  A couple of those sixty-five have been people that I have known and not a part of May Memorial, and some are persons who had no pastor and I simply received a call from the funeral home looking for a pastor to preside.  But most of them have been May Memorial people.  In addition to those sixty-five, there have been others who have passed away and I was unable to do the funeral, and I am thankful for former pastor Rudy Potter who has always been willing to lead those and be a steady source of comfort and Christian love.

I have thought a lot about funerals over the past few months, and I have concluded that funerals become both easier and more difficult over time.

How do they get easier?  The way they get easier is that I have established an outline of how to prepare and I know much of what I’m going to say and do.  I always plan with the family about what will be involved at the funeral, but I know that there are some “essentials” that are not really negotiable.  These are words that have been spoken at times of death for centuries (or millennia?).  These are important words.  Important prayers.  Important statements.  Words like “The LORD is my shepherd…even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death…”. I am normally not an “off the cuff” person, but especially at funerals I am unwilling to simply stand up and say whatever happens to come to my mind.  It is too important an occasion to rely on my spontaneity to produce the words that need to be said.  I will always speak words about resurrection, Jesus saying “I am the resurrection and the life, those who believe in me…”. I will pray a prayer of committal, “In sure and certain hope of the resurrection to eternal life, we commend to almighty God our sister/brother name, and we commit his/her remains to the ground.  Earth to earth, ashes to ashes, dust to dust.”  These are important words, and they will be a part of most every funeral I do.  So in this way, funerals have become easier.  I know my plan.

But funerals have also become more difficult.  And this is simple.  The relationships and love that grows over the course of a decade is far deeper than a relationship that happens in months or a couple of years.  And yes, pastors are emotionally attached and affected when they officiate at a funeral.  A pastor does not have the ability to completely disconnect from the emotion and grief that is so thick at a funeral.  And this is again another reason to rely on traditional words that have been spoken for generations.  It is more difficult emotionally to do a funeral for someone you love.  And each year a pastor’s love for members of the congregation grows more and more.

I take funerals seriously.  If I am off point (or boring or ineffective) for a Sunday sermon, I always have next Sunday coming.  But for a funeral, I have one chance, and I don’t want to waste the opportunity to speak important words well for that grieving family.  Being the pastor of a church like May Memorial means that funerals are a large part of my ministry, and I embrace that calling as from God.  It is not always easy work, but it is important, and I am grateful this good work God and May Memorial has entrusted to me.

Advent Waiting

There are not many things in my life that require me to wait.  I can order a book from Amazon, it will be on my front porch in two days, free shipping, and as soon as the transaction is processed I can read it instantly on my phone.  No waiting.  In my study at church I have a Keurig Coffee Machine.  All I have to do is drop in a pod, press the button, and within seconds I have a great cup of coffee.  No waiting.  I can access almost any piece of music on my iPhone and instantly listen to a wide variety of musicians perform the selection.  No waiting.  I can immediately get in touch with my children, wife, family members, and friends by texting.  No waiting.  I have an app on my phone that will give me directions to any location in the world, and if traffic is backed up for any reason the app will automatically re-route me so that I don’t have to wait in stopped traffic.

            Our world, with its technology, has eliminated many of the things that at one time caused us to wait.  In many ways this is a tremendous blessing.  No one likes to wait for coffee, and what a joy it is to access music without going to a store or waiting for a concert.  But this “immediate” world can cause us to think that all things should happen on our schedule, exactly when we want it, and that we should not have to wait for anything.

            Our world has already jumped to Christmas.  There was no waiting, no patience, the culture simply jumped to the holiday full force.  But if Christmas means the Coming of the Holy One, of God with Us, we people of faith know that God does not work on our immediate schedule.  God rarely comes when we’re expecting Him, more often than not God moves in ways that require us to practice patience and faith. God works on God’s schedule, and for us that means waiting with attentive hearts.

            This Sunday we begin the season of Advent.  For us Baptists we begin catching a foretaste of Christmas during the Advent season, but as we slowly light each candle of the Advent Wreath we are reminded that for ages God’s people waited for the coming Messiah.  This also means that we often have to wait for God.

            I could readily name several things for which I’m waiting on God.  Things that I continue to pray about and carry before God, and God has not yet come for me in these places.  Sometimes it would be easy to give up, to despair, and to try to take matters in my own hands.  But I know that for ages and ages God’s people have waited, and even though they didn’t know when it would happen, God came.

            These Advent Sundays are as important for me this year as they ever have been, and I know that for many in our May Memorial family there are important for them too.  

            Be patient, pray, cry out, keep watch, be alert, for God will come.  

Attitude of Gratitude

It occurs to me that there are many ways to approach life in this world.  There are different perspectives with which people may choose to view their lives, circumstances, and general place in life, and when I am at my best I choose to approach life as a blessed child of God, blessed beyond all that I deserve.  Many in our world choose to approach life as a victim, and some face the world with a sense of entitlement.  For others, luck seems to play a big part of their worldview, and there are still those who take their cues from A.A. Milne’s Winnie the Pooh character Eor, an eternal pessimist who always has a sense of impending doom.  While I am prone to all of these, in my heart of hearts I believe that we are all blessed by God beyond all that we deserve. 

I have a devotional book that offers me a short thought each day, and on many days at the end of the reflection I jot down a list of things that I am grateful for that day.  It is a simple exercise that sets my world in perspective.  In the spirit of Thanksgiving, I offer to you one a short list of what I am thankful for today:

I am thankful for my wife of 25 years come the 28th of December,

            who loves me even when I am (frequently) unlovable, 

            and reminds me to not take myself too seriously,

            and still makes date nights something I look forward to.

I am thankful for my three wonderful daughters;

I am thankful for my church family at May Memorial;

I am thankful for my parents and my wife’s parents,

            that they made us go to church as children—even when it wasn’t fun,

            that they sent us to college,

and expected us take responsibility for ourselves when we became adults and were married.

I am thankful for my home,

            that it is warm and safe,

            that it faces east so the sun shines in the front windows in the morning,

            and that I don’t have to act like a pastor there;

I am thankful that I have all I need, and so much more;

I am thankful God gives me things for free that I could never afford…

            like the joy of sitting by a fire in my yard with my family,

            and the wonder of a sunset over the ocean on summer vacation.

I am thankful for the people that I have met that I would have never sought out and the things I learned from them;

I am thankful that I have not found it necessary to take a drink today just to make it through.

I am thankful for the painful experiences that taught me things I would have never learned without them;

I am thankful for music and people who compose or perform it,

            like Johnny Cash, Bruce Springsteen, Jay Ungar, and Doc Watson,

            and Vaughan Williams, J.S. Bach, Morten Lauridsen, and Josquin des Prez.

This week leading to Thanksgiving is a time to be thankful, and when we stop to consider it just for a moment, aren’t we all blessed?  Aren’t we all blessed beyond all that we deserve?

Lapsed Baptism?

The early Church, until about the time of the Emperor Constantine, experienced periods of persecution.  I’m not talking about “Starbucks won’t put Merry Christmas on my cup” persecution, I’m talking about persecution that could cost you your life if you professed “Jesus is Lord.”  Of course the profession “Jesus is Lord” implies that the emperor (or president, or governor) is not, and this did not go over well with the Romans.

During these times of persecution some went bravely to their martyrdom, others did not.  Some lapsed, or renounced their faith in order to avoid death.  But then, a new emperor would come to the throne who was tolerant of Christianity, and these “lapsed” Christians would show back up to church.  They would pick up their bulletin and find their way to their old pew and happen to sit by a widowed woman who’s husband kept the faith and lost his life.  This did not go over well.

And to make it more complicated, there were church leaders (pastors, elders, etc) who lapsed.  And then the question came up about being baptized by a pastor who later renounced the faith in order to save his life?  Was this baptism, by a person who would deny Christ, valid?  Or, did it need to be “redone” by a pastor who did not “lapse?”

It was a complicated problem, as you can imagine, but the Church finally made the decision that being baptized by a clergy person who later lapsed did not mean that the baptism was invalid.  On the human side of things it may have been imperfect, but God got it right.

I was baptized when I was young.  There was a lot I did not understand.  I don’t know that I had my reasons exactly right for getting baptized.  If I did it today I would understand more what was happening and why I was doing it.  But as I look back on it, God got it right.  I was claimed by God, I professed my young faith, and I was initiated into the Church.  If I am blessed to live until I am 80 or older, I will look back to my 47 year old faith and see how I have grown to that time.

We profess our faith when we are baptized, and we are claimed by God in those same waters.  But we never get anything exactly right.  Because we are human.  Our stories and lives are complicated, and often messy.  We are the ones lined up on the riverbank when Jesus shows up and gets in line with us, demonstrating his solidarity with us that we may be more like him.

All Saints

I find deep meaning in All Saints Day, as Christians throughout the history of the Church have.  When Martin Luther decided to go public with his 95 Theses to reform the Church he decided to do it on the Eve of All Saints, October 31.  He knew a large crowd would gather for All Saints and his proposals would be viewed by a large crowd.  Hence October 31 is not just Halloween, or “All Hallow’s Eve,” it is also Reformation Day.

Today (November 1) is All Saints Day, but we will celebrate it this coming Sunday in worship.  We will remember our saints, those who loved us, supported us, and most importantly pointed us to Jesus.  We will have a slideshow with photographs of our saints: parents, siblings, children, and friends who have gone on to be with the Lord, and we will name and remember the saints of May Memorial Baptist Church who entered the Church Triumphant since the last All Saints Day.  These are:

Matt Bennett

Dee Carter

Bob Cosby

Rick Gallier

Fran O’Donnell

Jim Pinkley

Frances Tilman

Frances Winall

Earl Worsham

We will remember these before God, grateful for their lives, their examples, and their faith.

We live in a culture which often only finds value and meaning in the present moment.  A culture that is quick to dismiss the past, and when this is done we grow myopic and limited in our perspective.  Remembering the saints of the church is a way for us to see ourselves in perspective, to remember that we did’t get here on our own, and that we are a part of a story that started long before us and will continue long after we have joined the Church Triumphant.

I often have a tear in my eye on All Saints Day, I probably will this year as well.  But mostly what I feel is gratitude for those in our church and in my family who have blessed me and offered their lives for others.

Join us this Sunday in worship, it will be a meaningful day of worship.  And as always, when you come to worship, God will meet you here.

Sleeping with a Mosquito

Last Wednesday night we had a community ministry focus night, an engaging evening with representatives from agencies that meet needs of individuals and families when they find themselves in difficult circumstances.  We heard about Caritas, The Free Clinic, The Coalition of Churches, and Department of Social Services.  It was encouraging to hear of the good work that each of these groups participate in, and to know that May Memorial partners with these is a reminder of how God works through our church is many different ways.

Caritas, based in Richmond, is a huge agency that provides space, support, education, and training for those who are experiencing homelessness.  Caritas has renovated a massive warehouse that once belonged to Phillip Morris, and now that building is made up of dozens of spaces where folks can live while they get back on their feet.  Caritas also provides long term rehab for those suffering from alcohol and drug addiction.  It is an amazing work that touches thousands of lives each year.

After Clara Stokes completed her presentation about Caritas, we all were speechless at the size and scope of their work.  The next presenter was Patsy Goodwyn, and as she started, she made a comment about the size of the Coalition’s work compared to that of Caritas.  And there is a vast difference.  Caritas is huge, the Coalition of Powhatan Churches' work is much more limited.

I have thought about this difference in size and scope since last week.  The huge reach of an agency like Caritas, and the more limited work of a local agency like the COPC.  This difference exists in churches as well.  I think of a church of another denomination in Richmond that I have become familiar with this year, and even with the pandemic their yearly budget still exceeds two million dollars.  Large churches, agencies, and small churches, small agencies.

I saw a quote a few weeks ago by the Dalai Lama:  “Those who think they’re too small to make a difference have never slept with a mosquito in the room.”

Over the past few years as I have become more involved with the COPC I have heard and seen how people’s lives have been deeply affected by the work they do.  People who would not have food, children who needed a physical in order to stay in school, families who would have their electricity turned off, parents and children who found housing after sleeping in their car in the Wal-Mart parking lot.  For all of these and many more, the COPC, supported by churches like May Memorial, have made a difference in these lives.  There have not been a huge number of families (compared to Caritas), but for the families who have had their needs met, the impact has been huge.

Small things in God’s hands make a huge difference in our world.  And this is important for us to remember.  Yesterday our children collected our three cents a meal offering.  Except for two cents, or one cent, you can’t get any smaller than three cents.  And yet we bring that offering every fourth Sunday, and God has honored our commitment to this giving work.  God has used this small thing to touch lives in our community, to restore hope when it was almost gone.

Let us never grow skeptical of small things.  Small things make big differences.  And remember, those who think they’re too small to make a difference should try sleeping with a mosquito in the room.

Patience and Grace in McDonalds

It was 85 degrees and sunny when we arrived at Busch Gardens this past Saturday, within two hours it was raining and in the low 60’s.  We have always loved Howl-O-Scream, and I was excited for this year’s trip.  But it turned out, in a word, miserable.  I thought that the rain and cold would drive the crowd away, resulting in short lines, but that didn’t happen either.  

About 7:30 I had all I could take, and so did the rest of our group.  So the seven of us started making our way back to the Scotland parking lot, which is the lot used for overflow parking when the park is packed with people.  We then made our way down to the road to McDonalds for dinner.  Once inside, the seven of us ordered at one of the digital kiosks because no one was working the register.  I always prefer to order with a person, it seems to help with the accuracy of my order, but we were forced to order on the screen.  The night wasn’t getting any better.  We then went to our table and started waiting.  We waited, waited, and then waited a little more.  Finally, I walked up to the counter to investigate the status of our order.  I told the woman behind the counter that I was uncertain about my order, because I had not gotten a receipt.  “The kiosks don’t give receipts” she replied, and didn’t say anything else.

By this time Beverley had joined me at the counter.  We stood there wondering about our food, she knew I was frustrated, not just with our order but with our whole evening.  And then she finally said, “well you know, that one man there is the only one preparing food.”  And she was right.  Then she pointed out the other two workers who were trying their best to keep the drive-through moving.  “It looks like they are extremely understaffed” she said, and again, she was right.  I was frustrated as I waited, but the three employees were working as hard as they could.  And then standing there in McDonald’s I realized, what I needed more than my chicken sandwich meal was patience and grace.

Our culture seems to be on edge with each other these days.  Read the news, watch a School Board meeting on YouTube, bring up the topic of masks or vaccines or any number of front page stories, you will see it.  Just broach any one of the questions concerning sexuality, LGBTQ rights, or the phenomena of choosing pronouns or a restroom, and you will see it.  Ask a handful of people about the evils of racism and how it should be addressed, and you will see it.  People are frustrated and angry.  And even those of us who have made the decision to follow The Prince of Peace find ourselves sucked into this exhausting and joyless narrative of anxiety, stress, anger, and division.

We need a lot of things right now, but as much as anything we need to be people who offer grace and patience with one another.  We have all been affected by a historically trying twenty months.  We have been bruised and battered, divided and pulled apart, and our community (and our world) needs to have patience with one another.  We have a calling from God to demonstrate grace to other Christians, to our neighbors, and even to our “enemies.”

While this time has been trying and no one would have wished the hardships we have faced, we find in it a wonderful opportunity to clearly demonstrate what life in the Kingdom is like.  We have the chance to show what lives will look like when God’s “kingdom comes on earth as it is in heaven.”  We have the chance to recognize that God’s invitation doesn’t come just in our sanctuary, but in the real world, standing cold and wet in McDonalds.